Hi, so, I know that this is a PLANT forum. But honestly, this is the biggest group of black people I have had access to and I don't know where else to turn because I live in VERMONT. The 2nd whitest state in the whole of America. And anyone I talk to about being black in America gives me deadpan stares or pity parties. so here I am.
Anyone else struggling? Anyone else just not doing well? I feel this existential dread, combined with just this deep sense of loss and mourning as I watch the world around me. Loss of self, I'm mourning being able to exist without this huge awareness of the uncertainty of my future. ANd taking space. FORGET about it. I feel like I'll never be comfortable doing so. I just broke up with my boyfriend who said some RACIST SHIT and I STILL feel guilty for cutting it off for "such a petty reason". Like wtf is with my brain??? I don't know. Is anyone else feeling "squeezed" as of late? Thanks for listening <3 BLM Stay safe.